Word

Word have power , weld them carefully.

This is one of the quote from assassin creed 3 . Simple yet very meaningful .

Many people does not know or understand this, and many more have to go though the hard way to learn their lesson . Even I am no exception of this.

My word have bring joy to people, some hurt like a blade , other's I have no idea of how they have been fell by those that I gave them to.

More and more as one age ,  word became a restrain , a chain that could lock oneself up to avoid the harsh reality by wielding them wrong.

There are word that I have said, those that I wanted to heard of from that special someone.

Still have lot more to learn of .

Going back to finish my one thousand word essay , good luck .

A woman that I loved

That women , the woman .
The one that stole my heart ,
The one that hurt it .
Also the one that I love dearly .

I was asked what I have love about her , yet I could not answer .
After all those that happen , I could not even remember what's the reason that I fall for her .
I loved her as she is , her past , present , and future.

I could not be the one that stand beside her , yet I begged like a beggar , hoped that one day her would take me.
Naive though I have and childish action I have displayed to her.

For her happiness and though lies not with me , but another man.
Every thing happen for a reason , what I was told .
Is this a lesson for me ?
To learn the same thing twice , so that the same mistake will not be repeated the third time?
So much have happen , so much have my heart bared , till not a single tear was shear , nor my heart ache any more.
How much how her done to me , and yet I still loved her ?
To even have the though of sacrifice for her , where I valued my own life more than any thing in this world , yet for a woman like her , I would pay any price for her.

They said that the best is yet to come , but what if this is the best ? What if I walk past it and never grasp whole of it?
Then I would live with that choice that I have made .
No need for one to blame any thing or any one , but only one self.

I cannot love her with my way only , that is not the way a relationship should be .
Instead, giving her up , though once pain me dearly , became a price that I was willing to paid .

What would happen to me ? I have no answer for that .
I have always looked for an answer for a question that I dunno , and now I feel that I have part of the answer for that .

May a better me be born after this sleep .
May god grand me another wish ,
another dream where the happiness can be long lasting ,
and not just a instant within the dream ,
and follow by the cruel of reality.

May that wish of mine be fulfil one day.

Olivia - 對了，我錯了 (官方版MV)

I am wrong , I know that .
How could I correct them?
I do not know.

YUI - Laugh away-short ver.-

TANK - 陽光美眉 Sunny Girl (官方版MV)

我的陽光美眉在哪里？

moumoon - Real Love (カバー) [HD]

Olivia 2013全新專輯[等等] 首波主打 - 「等等」官方版

等等，等待着对的时间， 对的人 ， 所带来对的辛福 ：）。

陳綺貞-就算全世界與我為敵 (官方完整版MV)

黃鴻升-黑心 (官方完整版MV)

黃鴻升-忘了怎麼快樂 (官方歌詞版 with Lyrics)

品冠 - 我以為

不能說的秘密

不能說的秘密(電影 不能說的秘密 主題曲) (修改)

作詞：方文山
作曲：周杰倫

冷咖啡離開了杯墊　我忍住的情緒在很後面
拼命想挽回的從前　在我臉上依舊清晰可見

最美的不是下雨天　是曾與你躲過雨的屋簷
回憶的畫面　在盪著鞦韆　夢開始不甜

你說把愛漸漸放下會走更遠　又何必去改變　已錯過的時間

你用你的指尖阻止我說再見　想像你在身邊　在完全失去之前

你說把愛漸漸放下會走更遠　或許命運的籤　只讓我們遇見
只讓我們相戀這一季的秋天　飄落後才發現　這幸福的碎片

要我怎麼撿

22 , twenty - two

Today , July 22 .

Another day like the usual , like all the 22 that has happen in the past and same as those 22 that have yet to come .

My birthday , that is not important . Important people that was born in this date ? Go Google yourself .

This?



A song from a singer that I like .

And I promise that I will go your concert if you happen to have your world tour again . Well after I started getting pay check instead of just paying bill.

A lot of thing , happen on this date . A lot more happen on this day .  And more to come the day after .

22 , a number that was unique , not just because of the day I was born , the date that the girl I like was born , many year and month after me .

But as  memories ,  reality and the future that we hold.

I still not seeing the thing that I wanted to see , or not mean for me to see .

Waiting or not , became the greatest question of all.

Parallel world , became a great answer after all.

I lose thing , people , and emotion that was precious to me . I can only look at them at the past , waiting for their return in the future , and look out for them at the present .

A lot of thing , come and go .

One day , we will go .

One time , we belong .

One and one , two and two ,twenty two.

This is the day ,

This is today .

This is July 22 2013.

May the all wish come true , all dream turn to reality .

All the best.

S.H.E - 戀人未滿 (官方版MV)

劉明峰-無盡的愛

無盡的愛(劉明峰)

全能創作才子劉明峰自創曲 用真實的音符感動你我譜出心中無盡的愛

作詞：劉明峰　作曲：劉明峰　編曲：Jerry C　演唱：劉明峰

我在每個和你分開的日子裡　愛你的心從未止息
看時間悄悄劃開我們的距離　讓我不能自己

＃發現我不夠好　你也不完美　紛紛擾擾　傷痕累累
　恨自己當初傷害你不懂得珍惜　卻來不及

我在無盡的等待　卻只剩傷害　心碎的時刻　喔　有誰能明白

無盡的懸崖　孤獨的存在　沒有你的未來

＊我的愛　失去後才明白　後知後覺你卻在咫尺天涯
　道不盡千言萬語　在心口難開　真實你的存在
　你的愛　我總是放不開　只能在夢醒時分　痛卻難以釋懷
　在我心上沒人能替代　是你的無盡存在　無盡的愛

Repeat ＃,＊,＊

Greatness of our eye

our eye is the best camera in the world , it capture image with the highest resolution that no camera in the world can ever compared , record video that can be unlimited played in the screen which called mind and left a memory free of record called memories which can be kept and shared .

Eye , the part that was called the window of soul . One that can show our deepest emotion to others , provide that they can feel it in the first place. It was said that our eye are connected to out soul. Who knows? Maybe that's the truth , maybe not.

So , thank you for giving us such a wonder .

 A way for us to interpret the world , a way for us to feel the world.

Olivia -「愛夠了」官方版 HD MV

有一天我会

連詩雅 Shiga Lin - 好好過 Movin' On (Official Music Video)

連詩雅 Shiga Lin - 說一句 Once Said (Official Music Video)

HYUN BIN - THAT MAN

The story of us

Every thing started that day , that moment , that time that we meet.

Nothing was expected at that moment , never would have know what fate have install for you and I . Nobody did.

Never would have dream of this day, the day that have changed us . 

We are just pawn in the chessboard call fate , not even capable of moving with our own will .

The day move on , time move on, the feeling that I feel about you , grow strong everyday .

A sharp brain and observation skill will work on any front , any field but not in the place I am in currently.

It made me think too much , seeing all sort of possibility , good and bad .

This would be good if I am working as an analyst but not in love .

It made me weak , vulnerable and really looked pathetic as a man.

Maybe this is part of the journey ,not melted all the ice that surround me , so that I could stand beside you with a warm heart and warm you up when your feeling down and needed companion .

And this is the time where I feel warm for a long time , after all life is not bad with me and keep pouring rain onto me , made me sick , also stronger . 

And yet no matter how strong one is , one bound to weakness . Even super hero need a break what more than us.

First time that the gift has feel like a burden , one that keep dragging me to the bottom of the ocean where the warm sunlight is not reachable.

Yet , the comfort that i feel when with you cannot be deny. Like you said that ou did nothing , but maybe that nothingness is what made you so special at all.

Waiting , a progress that test one patience . Something that can really see once truth , when the time came.

Continue waiting , continue to work for it , is what I can do now .

Not going to back down this time, for first time in life that there is some thing that I really wanted and no compromise this time as well.

着迷

Fourth June and fragment of Fifth June

Thank you, for melting all the ice around my castle , I believe that I have enough of cold for such a long period of time.

For letting sunlight flowing through the cloud that was covering my sky, for making the day a little brighter for one to bear with.

Letting me remember the music that I have forgotten long ago, and I did't even realize until you ring that bell inside my memories.

Making me believe in waiting , and wait for the arrival of the train that will carry me to the destination that I always hoped to reach

In any case that what I hoped for and wanted does not come through , let leave it that way first. Too much spoiler is bad for anything .

My mood was affected , since i heard thing that i don't wanted to and like to hear. But that's OK . Listen to the music that you brought back to me made me calm again, and continue to walking forward will made me even stronger . That, i believe .

That rainbow that I saw yesterday , that moment will always be there , to remind me of the warm i saw , to remind me of you that I was talking to , the person that I care for, you.

Now , let's be strong and move forward . Only the future is there to wait for us , for us to fill up the void that he hold dearly while anticipating our arrival.

周杰倫 浪漫手機 官方完整 Jay Chou Romantic Cellphone

S.H.E - 愛上你

林俊傑 JJ Lin - 因你而在 You N Me

林俊傑 讓我心動的人

Waiting

Once ,this is the word that I hated most , now it had became a part of life . 

All thing worthy that happen in life is worth waiting , no matter how long it require one to wait.

Some many say this is stupid , why wait when there are plenty more outside ?

It's not the same , some thing just can't be replace easily or even being replaced at all.

So rather the correct one , than the wrong one .

The waiting period is always the worst , one that will tear one apart . 

Overcome it .

Not sure about this time , since someone once told me that waiting itself is wrong .

Indeed that waiting for something that could never happen is wrong  .

 

I believe that day , that time frame will come .

So , I will wait this time . And pray , hoped that my simple wish will be granted this time.

Emotion

Emotion are such as strange thing , it made a person do the most outrageous thing that person can ever done.

It made one unease .

Yet there are time that trusting it is the most correct action.

So should we trust how we feel and do thing according to it?

Maybe I will have an answer for that soon , maybe.

我可以

蔡旻佑 

我可以

作詞：林唯/蔡旻佑
作曲：蔡旻佑

寄 沒有地址的信
這樣的情緒 有種距離

你 放著誰的歌曲
是怎樣的心情
能不能說給我聽

雨 下的好安靜
是不是你 偷偷在哭泣
幸福(它)真的不容易
在你的背景 有我愛你

我可以 陪你去看星星
不用再多說明 我就要和你在一起
我不想 又再一次和你分離
我多麼想每一次的美麗 是因為你

Wound and Scar

Wound and scare, those are like badge and decoration that a solider receives from their service. Everyone have them, just matter of quantity.

Wound injury that one gets when being hurt. It takes time to heal, time to recover. Not all wound can be heal completely, and those wound left scar.  Scar became part of us, part of our past, no matter how we obtain it in the first place.

It serve to remind us of the past, scar have that kind of functionality. How we cope with it is entirely on our on. Some scar may fade away, and with the memories that it carries. Where some will follow us until the end of the earth.

Mental and emotional scar are the best, because you don’t see them, but they exist. They serve just like badge, an invisible one that is. People who see it will realize, that every one of them carry their own story, they carry the pain and sorrow of the one that wearing it.

It said it will make one stronger, and the reverse is also truth, where it tear one apart. Being strong enough to wear them, is courage. It mean one have taken the next step to move forward not necessary better, but forward.

I like that saying that I just read about, experience is the name of excuse we made for our mistake. As life goes on, a lot of experience is gain. Good or bad, all matter. It made who you are now.

So long those experience does not kill you, what is gave you is just wound and scar will be left aftermath, but a new door will open. Not knowing, where it lead us, but a chance that we have to take.

What Can I Do

潘瑋柏 

What Can I Do

作詞：吳易緯 (生命樹)
作曲：倪子岡 (NESE)

坐在少了你笑聲的午後 空氣中氧氣變得好稀薄
一個人喝的白開水太濃 無法入睡夢到有你的夢
你的圍巾我還抱在懷中 你的溫柔還在包圍著我
為什麼你的身邊不再是我

失去以後 後悔無法挽救 救不回弄丟的淚
才懂愛多昂貴 不再堅持誰對 對你勇敢成全
Oh Baby What can I do

忍住多少痛才能祝福 你的快樂是我的退路
替我幸福 無時無刻被溫柔保護 全世界對你羨慕
What can I do 請替我幸福

如果還能夠多做些什麼 現在的我會更努力去做
如果頑固付出讓你難過 現在的我學著退讓承受
也許你就不會選擇分手 也許我就不會給你傷口
也許陪在你身邊的還是我

失去以後 後悔無法挽救 救不回弄丟的淚
才懂愛多昂貴 不再堅持誰對 對你勇敢成全
Oh Baby What can I do

只要你的笑容多滿足 再多辛苦我都願意負
替我幸福 無時無刻被溫柔保護 全世界對你羨慕
What can I do 請替我幸福

愛上你是我最好的禮物 走過的每一步都值得去回顧
好想緊握住你的手 卻只能笑著祝你幸福
Oh Baby What can I do

無時無刻被溫柔保護 全世界對你羨慕
What can I do 請替我幸福
What can I do 請替我幸福

Time , timing

Time record , and timing is what decide what time record .

How interesting that a subset of a thing can decide its overall result .

A lot of thing just need a good timing to be completed , the result will be even better if the timing is perfect.

Like candy crush where you need life and some one just sent it to you at that moment , that's perfect .

It also just take wrong timing to ruin every thing , so cautious is advice .

So , since its so critical , what we do when the timing needed is not there?

Like photographer , we wait .

For them it take time to capture the perfect shoot that they wanted. It can be day and night and the time can drag on and on until the perfect scene is deem captured.

Same is life , is just that unlike picture where you can just edit later, there is no edit button on it. Maybe oh have a chance to made it better in the future , most of the one the price paid would be to great . So in this case patience would be the better virtue here.

I read a phrase where it said that waiting is wrong from the start. That apply only when waiting for thing that can never be achieve . The other hand waiting for something that is full with possibility and hope , that is something we could try for.

I am waiting for that particular timing now , what about you ?

easy and hard

its easy to fall , hard to get up .
easy to ask , hard to give.
easy to get lost , hard to get back on track.
easy to give up , hard to keep holding on.
easy to love, hard to being love by others.
easy to look at someone , extremely hard to look away .
easy to get hurt , hard to get cure.
easy to meet , hard to part .
life is easy and quite hard.
easy to live , hard on the living .
easy and hard , our choice is made.

让我擦掉你的泪

蔡淳佳 

讓我擦掉你的淚

作詞：梁文福
作曲：梁文福
編曲：吳慶隆

也許有一天　再見以後不再見
每次說晚安都像告別
可是我看見　愛能走到的永遠
每天醒來都再活一遍

＊我不怕風不怕浪　帶給我不完美
　只要我還懂得怎樣去給
　我迎著風迎著浪　穿越所有傷悲

　只要能擦掉你眼中的淚

也許有一天　牽著的手會不見
每次我都會握緊一點
可是我聽見　愛讓呼吸都改變
每天都靠近幸福一點

Repeat ＊＊

讓我能擦掉你眼中的淚

Dream

I use to have them , until they was crush . 

Wash away by the tide of memories , and flow back like season bird. 

They was me , what I use to be use, what I use to have

That cannot be changed , cannot be deny , cannot be regain.

Nothing is same any more since then.

I was different , by all standard of normal  I am different .

Is that something more that was given to me ? Or a handicap that was given to me?

I do not know, nor I question it before .

No , I did . But I am too weak to seek for that answer that time .

Now, the answer matter little to me .

There are people that still care , people that appreciate . 

That , is enough .

I am moving forward , thank to you all , especially you.

Still I am not as good as you think I am , and maybe you will be part that made me becoming the one that you saw in your vision.

 

過渡期

過渡期
作詞：曹宇棠
作曲：宋念宇

Hello? Hello you there?
試著分析所有夢裡　一再出現的訊息
有種失落　我感覺過
你若有所思的神情　背對著我的身影
我看得懂　那叫寂寞

＃夢境的意義　愛是痛的替代品
　我是你的過渡期　太簡單的謎(底)

＊忽遠忽近　只要你想你就隨時逃避
　若即若離　只要你想你隨時隱形
　I don't know why won't you set me free
　不想演戲　再花力氣扮演完美情侶
　不想繼續　再把一段關係當遊戲
　不想再做夢去麻痺　自己

試著分析所有夢裡　一再出現重複的訊息
有種失落　把每個希望一個個都澆熄
你若有所思的神情　背對著我的身影
我看得懂 (我看得懂)
理想的愛情只出現在夢裡 (只在夢裡)

Repeat ＃,＊

潛入你最深的意識裡　你就是不讓我看清
看清你複雜的聰明　聰明得讓我灰了心 (灰了心)
徹底的灰了心

忽遠忽近　只要你想你就隨時逃避
若即若離　只要你想你隨時隱形
I begging you to set me free
不想演戲　我們都失去了理想愛情
不想繼續 　就讓它活在我的夢裡
但夢裡不會再有你

(Rap)
What's up girl you know
回想昨天晚上　還有每個晚上
心不在焉你的模樣　就像一直不在現場
你把心放他身上　而我從來沒有重量
你用我的傷　擺脫你的傷
但遺忘才能讓我釋放　釋放
You know what I mean
It's over

Source: internet

The thing we have lost

After watching JJ practice love short movie , here's some though.

So long since I have seen you , hear your voice .

Forgotten , 

how your voice sound ,

how your face look ,

how it's to be beside you .

Yet,

there is no deny ,

that you were part of my life ,

part of my past ,

part of my memories .

To all those that we have lost ,

during our journey of life ,

Thank you.

For being part of it ,

To made us what we are now .

Thus , thank you again .

The start of a day

Start the day with sleeping

Continue the day with work

End the day with sleep again

That's a student life

R J second week of april

Busy with work , busy with life .

There is nothing that spin around me , I am no earth or sun .

Accept what I have , a better way to live a life .

Thus ..........

Acceptance of life completed .

lonely

Tired .

Have being fighting this war for a long time . Fighting against the enemy that will falter , never tired and never reduce in number . All alone , and after so long finally feel drained , feel like the endless energy that was supplied in the past has been cut off .

Loneliness , a formidable enemy . One that have the caliber to take down another opponent it faced. No matter the location , the size , the time , all will fall under it lap . One that have the capability that one turn , turned into one that can't be recognize by those that were once closed to them.Total transformation , fallen into the endless pit of darkness where one will be constantly being feed by the past that hold the most dearest memories that one once held.

Some of with fall with pride , where we fight till the bitter end of the battle. Some fall pathetic , begging for mercy where they don't even try to use what little strength against this foe.That's not a shameful act as the emissary that we were facing are too strong .

How could one win a endless war , a no limit zero sum game where endless resource have to be poured down into the war field .

Where's the answer?

Or did I asked the right question to invoke the desirable outcome?

IRIS

Iris a flower name , called Ayame in Japanese .

Learn about language of flower , the meaning behind each flower . And also realize that different color have a
different meaning .

Language of flower for iris : Good news , loyalty .

And here are extract from some website that i read about

Iris symbolizes eloquence. Purple iris is symbolic of wisdom and compliments. Blue iris symbolizes faith and hope. Yellow iris symbolizes passion while white iris symbolizes purity.

source: http://www.theflowerexpert.com/content/aboutflowers/flower-meanings

And this

Iris:

Faith, Wisdom, Valor, Your Friendship means so much to me source:http://www.iflorist.com/t-meaning.aspx and the highlighted part is the one that attract me the most to that flower.

Started to look at iris due to the Korea drama and realize that it hold much more than just a name for a show .

relationship

The most difficult lesson in life , a lesson that not every one will score a perfect ten or full mark for it. We are tied into the knot of relationship by the moment we were born . We were first tied to our family , the first connection , the first ever relationship that we have . Then we grow , we meet people and that's where the second relationship come , friendship . We made friend for all the time we were living . Some are temporary , where they fade away after some period of time . Some were beneficially , where we bonded due to mutual benefit. And lastly there were what we called eternal , friend that last for life , until you or them left the world , and yet after memories still exists .

The  third one , relationship between two person .The one that caught a lot of people on the endless spider net . Not much is known since the author of this post have not experience much on this and thus no comment on this . Just know that it some time end in happy ending where the two get together and live happily forever and  after where some it ended with a broken heart of glass with endless sleepless night and a wound that continue to bleed endlessly .

When you pass the third stage , you may or may not have the fourth one , a relationship as a parent and child .Another though phase that one have to faced . Really have no comment on this as I have no children .

The whole of our life is likely to revolve around human relationship . And yet all of us are having a not so smooth way to solve all those problem that we faced.

Treasure what you have , you may have nothing at the next second of your life.

Things that belong to you

In one life every one will bound to possess something. Any thing could be yours if you wanted , have the will to own it , have the heart to get it.

There are thing that you really liked that always appear at the wrong time . Some time you really have to wander how such thing could happen to you? Why that you luck could not be a little better so that it will appear on a different time , on then right time .

Trying to get those thing will be a fouls attempt , chances of failing is great . Not very good investment . And some time things will go really bad at the rate that you could not believe . Mess it up and it may change from a moment in your memories that is nice to be recall go the nightmare of your life that can never be erase , like a scar from a very bad wound that stick with you for the rest of your life .

Life is such , journey of a life is also a such . A such of what ? That's your interpretation, your own answer .

Life is like a coffee , which many combination is available .

Finding yours is your own job .

PS:Please substitute coffee with other drink that have similar property if you cannot consume coffees . Thank you.

people

That is the world we were in , human civilization . Currently the one that populate planet earth along with the other organism .

People , a factor that appear in a lot of system and theory that we study in college that most of the time label as uncertainty . Right , there is no way , no hundred percent way for us to predict a human action or movement . There is always chances that a person intuition will change the course of action that he/her will take in the next minute.

That was not just the part that human was unpredictable in  . Some , are just like the mother nature , change in an instant . Like a relationship , one party can change heart in the next second while the other was still immerse in that wonderful atmosphere .

But that is human nature right? At least for some that is . More unpredictable that the storm that is going to land beside me in few hour time.

Lightning strike now , need a break .


Will be continue .....................................

7/3/2013

Lesson have started as the new semester have kick start. Nothing heavy on the first week but can imagine how thing will move for the rest of the eleven week .

Quote time

: the world does not resolve around you . Your not the center of the sol system nor the Milky Way and definitely not the center of the galaxy. Nothing is wrong if your not the center of another person life as that's not why you was born . Remember at least your the center of the world for your family , your parent , the friend that care for you and maybe if fate and Cupid have been kind and caring enough , a special person will resolve around you like you are the center of gravity , which hold him/her closely to orbit around you.

Music , relax , a tired body that await to journey in the land of dream.

Adios , night . Sweet dream.

Though after watching lets play love

After watching the web drama let's play love on xinmsn , I think that it's a good thing that new element was being tested and I personally like it. Just that it's a bit short with each episode consist only of three minute, would be better if it could be a bit longer so that more can be explore.

Also saw the intro video where the cast answer about the question what is love. They have quite some answer there , and more can be search on the Internet and everyone will have their own unique answer .

To me, love is dream. That's what love mean for me , not sure whether it will change in the future but as for this moment , this is my answer to that question.

Last day of Febuary

Today is the last day of febuary  , no 29 this year .

A lot have happen this month ,summer course have ended where i am one step closer to graduation even though the end result was not satisfying . Have cny celebration which result in alot of red packet and food and feast which increase our/ mine fat/cholesterol level. Lack of exercise which create the result from the previous sentences .

Alot of happy moment , also sad moment was included . That's how life goes , always there would be up and there is definately be down .

Febuary , the second month of the year . Also the shortest month in a year . The month where valentine is held and every year have to sepnd alone  . No chocolate other the one that mum buy , pity me. Hope there will be a year where chocolate can just appear before me and I have no need to pull a single note or silver for it.

The month going to end in an hour time , let's pray for the better tomorrow , a better weekend , a better future.

 

So, what you want to change for the next month?

 

Judge

Such a hard thing to do , judging a person .

You may think one as a friend , but how could you know how a person think deep inside their mind ?

Such tedious routine have to go round and round until you learn the trick to it.

And the trick to it?

Who knows ? Find that out yourself . Maybe you will found it before your time run out.

Trust you gut more , at least you have some thing to back you up. There are time that your gut feeling is the best indicator on thing.

P S I love you , waiting

Saw this at Plaza Singapura last month . Remembered that there was a movie with the same name but never watched . Always forget about it and maybe will watch on the coming week if time permit me.

The heart doesn't have very clean heart shape and part of it was damage .Still this kind of thing was quite nice to see .

Sit at that corner while waiting for my jean to be fix and playing my phone until a pair of women sudden show up and look at me with the "what's a guy doing here look" that I went to shop before the appointment time to collect my jean.

Been a while since I went to PS. Remember that i use to go as frequent as possible for movie and food while staying at Singapore. A lot have changed since then , the place have been expended and more shop was added to the list for those shopaholic.Kind of good to hang around but not so good for the health of my wallet.
 
Not sure whether it's still there or not since it's a month old . Maybe next time will go back and check on it.

candle , light bulb , firework

The common trade of the three object ? They give out light and burn themselves in the process of doing so.

People love them , whether it's the romantic dinner that involve candle who illuminate the lovely vibe between the two love bird. Or bulb that light up everyone eye when they are in total darkness and also becoming part of the decoration especially during festival season . And how could the night end without a bang where the night sky not only be decorate by the beautiful milky way and star which was brought to us by the mother nature but also some man made sparkly beauty firework.

The trio was a great companion when you need them . Some will stay at your side when you really need them , other will stay at mind , your heart as part of the memories in life , a part that you may never forget in your entire life.

In life , your definitely going to meet people like the trio. Salute to them as they are the one that bring a better future , made the world a better place. And you , can be part of them and of course not in the sense of burning yourself in the process , but be person that shine the world . That world does not need to be big , maybe it's just a person heart , or your a little more  ambitious a a couple more people heart .

That's for the night , night . Sweet dream.

entry for 24/2/2013

Today is the last day for 2013 Chinese new year . It's called yuan xiao where it's the last day of celebration . For more detail please consult our free and almighty teacher which are called Google and yahoo .

Rush back from singapore in the morning and realize that dad have done all the praying .  Lesson of the day would be always , always made a phone call and confirm thing before making a decision. Could have stayed a few more day if we know that thing will turn out this way.

Still the very relax mood in wait for the new semester to began . Watch two episode of running man and going to get all of them from friend and watch before thing get ugly when the semester start to rack havoc .

Going to settle all the bill soon . Another hole in my bank account . Gosh , the cycle have started before I even got a paid check . Can imagine that the amount of bill that going to tie to my monthly deduction list when I finally start working.

Still a long time before that happen , and thus , enjoy life , student life.

PS: all the good stuff are for student , really miss the student price movie ticket . Even the rate given for credit and debit card are not as good as student price.

著迷

著迷

我停下腳步看著你，可愛又美麗的背影，
希望好運就此降臨，聽著我最喜歡的CD，
終於我鼓起了勇氣，把我的愛意向你說明，
你那憂鬱帶點神秘的大眼睛，已經攻佔我的心，
就讓我把每一個你摟在懷裡說愛你，BABY BABY就是你，
藏在心中的秘密，要和你在一起，這是多麼的甜蜜，
OH YOU'RE THE ONE FOR ME我早就深深著了迷,就快點給我你的心.

我停下腳步看著你，可愛又美麗的背影，
希望好運就此降臨，聽著我最喜歡的CD，
終於我鼓起了勇氣，把我的愛意向你說明，
你那憂鬱帶點神秘的大眼睛，已經攻佔我的心，
就讓我把每一個你摟在懷裡說愛你，BABY BABY就是你，
藏在心中的秘密，要和你在一起，這是多麼的甜蜜，
OH YOU'RE THE ONE FOR ME我早就深深著了迷,就快點給我你的心.

BABY BABY就是你，藏在心中的秘密，要和你在一起，這是多麼的甜蜜，
OH YOU'RE THE ONE FOR ME我早就深深著了迷,就快點給我你的心.

我會永遠在這裡,不停不停等著你,
BABY,快給我你的心 OH YOU'RE THE ONE FOR ME我會永遠在這裡，
不停不停等著你 BABY快給我你的心 BABY BABY就是你，
我早就深深著了迷，就快點給我你的心.

credit: 潘瑋柏 反轉地球 專輯

PS: one of my favorite  song 

letting go

One of the hardest lesson to learn. many people could do any thing, but  letting thing go , whether material , though or people , just ain't made for those people.

Even I am part of such group , it really take a lot of effort to move away from one thing that is one closely tie to you . Some time , time can be the catalyze for moving forward . But other time , people will just temporarily let out of thing , until they are being remind again .

So ? what's your choice ? let it go and be free or not ?

one piece film z

Watched this movie today . Not bad really . Japanese movie really know how to capture that heart warming moment . Still in cinema , catch it while it's till on theater .

idea

Really appreciate and impress by those that can constantly produce new idea .

Running short on idea to write about , or maybe just plain laziness that shut my mind down?
   
Running out of idea was a indication that you should either start recharge yourself either by rest or further enhancement to your brain. No eating of brain is involve in the brain enhancement mention above .

Rum would be good as I think some of the crazy idea come after drinking of rum. A toast to the creator of rum.

Running man cannot be forgotten as it's a idea generation program and from the look of it you can see how much idea and effort was put into it.

Run with your idea now , you may have a straight way to being a million or billionaire .

Reign the present and the future with your determination and brain .

entry for 20/2/2013

There is so much that are waiting for me to settle , so much .There is studies to be completed which will last for another year hopefully , or must ended by then. There are so many thing missing in the house, so many that was needed , and yet there is no cash that fill in the inventory .And all that await for me to fill in when i started to get my paid check.

There is this feeling that I have made the wrong choice , and from the look of thing now, that choice was really wrong .Yet there is no way to turn the gear of time backward , nobody can . There is only looking forward , and really believe that I can pull out the stun like always , and solve the crisis in the house.

Crysis 3 was out, but has no mood for it. Have stopped getting new game for a while. The last game that was purchase was mass effect 3 and that’s a story that will keep me accompany for a long period of time. Not saying that I will give up gaming just that the time now, the cash are better spends on other stuff.

T minus 11 day until the new semester start. And that’s where all de fun began.

Good night and sweet dream. Brush your teeth and they will be happy.

RJ

RJ time again, just that this time there is no 2359 and daily grade that come with this RJ.

Realize that this whole RJ(reflection journal ,part of the assessment for the daily grade ) thing from RP(Republic Polytechnic) was actually good that we can became better , just that really hard for one to keep doing it . So for all the RPian that survives the three year doing all this, good job. No more RJ after this but the self reflection thing is quite good, so keep that part up.

Still have one more week for my holiday as I have attended summer class , my long holiday have reduce to this three year where one have been Chinese new year .Going to enjoy the second week and the week after before the new semester start .

Listen to some old music, looking for the old memories that have been forgotten .Watched a Singapore drama after so many years. How many year have it been since I have sit in front of the television to watch a local drama? Sure have been a long time and got to saw that the feeling sure is good. That’s how my childhood is, watching drama since 7 till 10 and sleep after 10:30 after the channel 8 news .How nostalgic the feeling, to do thing that I have not done in a long time but used to do every day.

Maybe our family have changed, maybe I have changed, May not able to go back to that very simple and happy family any more. Still going to try hard to look for that simple happiness .All that’s matter, and nothing more.

Night.

Have a sweet dream or day depend on when you reading this.

watch , time

Ever since we were born, the one person that was closer to us other than our family would be time .Everything is linked to time, and literally every thing.

E.g. The time and day that you were born, the day you get married, the day your son/daughter get married , the day your being called gramp , etc.

So from here you can see that time is very, very important in life.

Important in work: Too much late and your fired .Too slow in work and fired.

Relationship: being late allow your bf/gf to look around while waiting and chances that you being replace are created by yourself.

Two examples is enough, no way to list out all of them, so you know the cost.

Time can do a lot of thing. It could bring forward a new generation, a new era. It recorded, more efficient than any of your in car camera or cctv or any funny way to record thing that you can think of. That’s why archaeology is there, to find out what time have preserve for us.

The lesson time taught us? Figure yourself, and then you would know what time as a teacher have been for you.

Appreciate your time keeper, whether it is your phone or that watch that you inherit from your dad, they will play a part in your life , big or small.

Thank you.

n Good Morning.

what's your time now?

Youth, what's became of us

Got lectured during the gathering yesterday by a tutor teacher. Correction, a super tutor teacher. A lot of advising from her. She must have either been through a lot or have been doing some really heavy reading to reach such a stage. Hopefully no heavy drinking was involved in the process of her getting her life experience.

Time past like women shopping, slowly but surely when you realize, time have moved so much just like how woman fill up their wardrobe with all kind of trophy from their voyage in the time they have spend on sail through the vast ocean of shopping complex, either in the form of mortar or brick or a small window that house the whole world in it.

Time sure have past, five year was a lot of time. Every passing second we are a bit further than our youth and at the same time a bit closer to our end. The journey, the memories that was made, created, by ourselves, that’s the most important.  

Every passing moment, those that are still studying are closer to graduation. Whether it’s three month, half a year, one year or two year, we are definitely closer to it, to our reachable target that we try so hard to reach. Those that have passed that stage, another new phase of life await you.

Finally to the super tutor teacher that was doing both at the same time, we sure understand all those you had said , maybe some of us are doing or experience what you had said or not , appreciation was sure in our heart. Let’s hope that we all became what we wanted to became .Maybe some will became like what a teacher like you hoped them to be.  

1991

A new year for us Chinese , and a new year for us , those that born in 1991 .
The year 1991 , started a great generation .
That year , the year that I was born and so as many of my friend , and many more in the world.
We were one of the batch that most experience in change .
From the old school japan anime to the newer style . From the big black brick which was the ancestor of the current smart phone to the journey of it slimming down like what most girl wanted , a smaller and slimmer size and back to the old way of thing where big is good .
To where we witness the start of a new millennium on  that moment on year 1999 2359 59 . Not saying other's are not involve in it , but just that we are part of it .
Where we witness the return of Hong Kong to china on year 1997.
And many more that could be listed down , just that my brain are not an unlimited hard drive that could store unlimited amount of information.

All of us was already an adult by law , some may have even father or mother a child or two .
Many of us are leaving school and ready to embrace another part of our life . Whether to future spending more money or start to earn money is also at our concern now.
Many life experience was learn , whether we willing to learn it or not. All those made us what we are , what we mean to be , be it now or the future.
It's all those , either big or small made up our life .
And our life?
Love it , at the very least . That you that your talking about and nothing will start if you do not start love.
That's us , our journey.

The journey was not ended , just that the writer on this post was tired and going to the dream land for a short break . Will be back when the journey on the dream land come to a fruitful harvesting .

thinking of the past

Look at the calender and realize that two more it will the goat year again in the chinese calender. This would be the second cycle of the chinese calender in my life and the feeling about it was so diffrent when I was facing it ten year ago.

It made me realize how much time have past , and how much that I have experience in this amount of time . Many things have happen , good and bad . Time have made everyone who they are now. For me , time have forge me as a person , for better or worst it's not my judgement but for other to say.

Quite funny feeling , the same time as last year was thinking that this was my last year as student and now I was still a final year student when the coming semester open . Wonder what's await for me yo experience this feeling in such short duration of time?

Just hope that the last year will move smoothly like that previous one and able to graduate and start working . A long list of thing was await for the future paid check to complete it. Going to get a happy job with a happy paid check.

This is the fourth day of chinese new year , back to JB ready and going to enjoy this short amount time for break as the month come , a new beginning , a ray of light will shine through the sky.

Good night.

HOLIDAY

Reach Kuantan for Chinese new year . The same routine every year . A lot of bad thing have happen last year, whether it related to us or not. Hope the snake year will have a stronger and better haki to keep all the bad stuff away this year .

Happy snake year to all who read this . ^ ^

sisisi , the snake saying good luck to all -_- .

Holiday

Final completed , holiday mood for a while. Chinese new year on the way too . happy ending.

Reflection journal 30/1/2013

Been a while doing RJ , did't keep the record of all those I did back in the RP day . But well , can started to keep one here .

This year the first year after 21 birthday , the first year after being an adult for a full year.

The year did't start with good news , same as last year did't end with a happy ending .

All the sad news coming and going for the past few month and this feel like even the Mayan rumor was a fluke but there is still many event that to shake us up for the new year.

This is not what I wanted to say now , not all the negative news.

I stop reading news paper as the local newspaper was mostly cover with sad news either of people dying in tragic accident  or some crime news that constantly appear which I have tired of reading .

So I started to get news online , still not always good news appear on those news website , but at least no tree is harm while deliver those news.

After all those time past last year , really started to made me thinking how I should life my life .

After all there is only once a lifetime .

Maybe should start with drowning in the pool of memories , maybe some clue as what I should be doing will be found there .

Night, have a nice dream for those who read this . May a brand new morning await for you.

我們的Show

我們的Show

OS：不好意思 碰到你了 我坐過去一點好了

什麼是愛 互相包容 我問我自己
也許只是 衝動而已 兩個人的show
你的臉頰有你的頭髮 貼在我心上
希望世界能停留 感受你的體溫

Oh baby~ 我們的show
因為有你才上演
I got a show 真誠地快掉眼淚
一點點 親吻再多一點
摟著對方不要管現在是幾點

我們的show 儘管時間不長久 誰把誰休
我曾瞭解 能會有多痛 管那麼多
只要讓我在你耳邊輕輕唱歌

你的臉頰有你的頭髮 貼在我心上
希望世界能停留 感受你的體溫

Oh baby~ 我們的show
因為有你才上演
I got a show 真誠地快掉眼淚
一點點 親吻再多一點
摟著對方不要管現在是幾點

那天跟你一起坐計程車的時候
因為是那離心力的關係
不自覺地你自己靠著我
我感覺到你的髮香和你身上的溫度
我的手應該怎麼擺？該往那擺？
往上擺往下擺胡亂擺~
我就亂擺~乾脆假裝睡死我就亂擺~我就亂擺~

我們的show
因為有你才上演
I got a show 真誠地快掉眼淚
一點點 親吻再多一點
摟著對方不要管現在是幾點

我們的show 儘管時間不長久 誰把誰休
我曾瞭解 能會有多痛 管那麼多
只要讓我在你耳邊輕輕唱歌

OS：不好意思 不好意思太擠了 我的手不知道該往哪擺

黃靖倫 
作詞：蕭閎仁
作曲：蕭閎仁
Credit : 黃靖倫  OK MAN album 

Self talking

This is my though for tonight .

Realize that I haven changed at all , still that spoiled little kid that only rely on others.

Nothing that really change since then .

No large dream , no medium dream , not even small dream.

Only very realistic target that lie infront of me.

Have a feeling that all the choice in the past are not correct at all. And what happen in the past , continue as present tense.

No way going to run away like a litle kid . There is no such room of space for an adult to just turn thier back and walk away from difficulties.

Feel like my emotional impluse have blur my decision making in the past few year . Now going to pay the price for my studies.

The road haven reach its end yet , there is still way for it to turn around , and turn to a better road.

Just hope that whatever happen on the final test for this summer , may it be good .

And let me complete my studies , dare not hope for flashing ending , but a smooth as ice surface.

A feeling of heart

A feeling that can touch your heart .

Voices that can reap you off any negative emotion.

Emotion in the music that can calm any thundering storm.

Finally , it's coming back to me.

Such long time , that I have forgotten about this. Forget how to let go of thing and instead got tangle up by all this emotional stuff. 

Happen to browse to this file in my old Seagate hard drive. In there lies the old song that was sung by her , with voice that's able to blow all your trouble away.

Listening to the song , the voice inside the music made me realize that time have pass . Seven year have been past away without me really realize about it.CAN YOU BELIEVE ? So much time have been past without one really notice it.

And so thank you , the person that sing in my past memories . It was your voice , you that have guide me to what I have achieve in the past . Hoped that whatever that link me to you again will do the same wonder as in the past . Enable me to reach the level that I have never hoped to reach.

Well, we can't return to that time when we were just kid and all our world is just being yourself. A teenager turn adult last year .Many thing have happen last year , meet a lot of people and also experiences a lot more.

So much , and yet so little .

The thing that I forgotten , the emotional sense that was dull by time . Never realize that my life was so pale in comparison to other , so boring and yet its my life , my way of living it .

Slowly , I started to learn more , more about people , more about life. And slowly that I have to regain what was lost to me as in the past few month , life is just plain . the excitement that was present in the past have vanish , brought away by some unknown identities.

This year , where I conclude my studies if all may when smoothly for me . The coming month will became the ride of passage toward my achievable goal . The time will be the book keeper that record all that I have done in this year . May the result is what I hoped for , a result that I can proudly claim as mine.

2013 , a new year . An important year for all of us or just me ? 

Process of the day

Not much have progress for the study week .Have spend most time slacking and pace for studying is slow . Too slow I would say.

Need some additional motivation to push myself . But where do I find those ?

Mistake

Realize that I have repeated the same mistake as two year ago.

What a mess I am .

When did I live my life as history that keep repeating itself ?

And when could this end ?

Night

First time writing from the iPhone blogger app . Quite nice as compare to using safari to write post which are so not user friendly as you need to zoom in and slide left and right to read the stuff you have written down and so not good looking the process of writing blog on mobile . This is a better solution at least it look , feel and work nicer a d better .


So here I am trying thing out where I should be sleeping , but a post before night sure feels good.

Life is beatiful

Just when life started to became better for one and nicer thing and person are coming into the life , fate have to sneak behind your back and stab it with the intent of killing. What would be worse is that even with such intention , it does not kill you. It became a wound on your body , a wound that would constantly dripping blood from it and slowly drain your life energy away from you.

to be continue...........