Reflection journal 30/1/2013

Been a while doing RJ , did't keep the record of all those I did back in the RP day . But well , can started to keep one here .

This year the first year after 21 birthday , the first year after being an adult for a full year.

The year did't start with good news , same as last year did't end with a happy ending .

All the sad news coming and going for the past few month and this feel like even the Mayan rumor was a fluke but there is still many event that to shake us up for the new year.

This is not what I wanted to say now , not all the negative news.

I stop reading news paper as the local newspaper was mostly cover with sad news either of people dying in tragic accident  or some crime news that constantly appear which I have tired of reading .

So I started to get news online , still not always good news appear on those news website , but at least no tree is harm while deliver those news.

After all those time past last year , really started to made me thinking how I should life my life .

After all there is only once a lifetime .

Maybe should start with drowning in the pool of memories , maybe some clue as what I should be doing will be found there .

Night, have a nice dream for those who read this . May a brand new morning await for you.

我們的Show

我們的Show

OS：不好意思 碰到你了 我坐過去一點好了

什麼是愛 互相包容 我問我自己
也許只是 衝動而已 兩個人的show
你的臉頰有你的頭髮 貼在我心上
希望世界能停留 感受你的體溫

Oh baby~ 我們的show
因為有你才上演
I got a show 真誠地快掉眼淚
一點點 親吻再多一點
摟著對方不要管現在是幾點

我們的show 儘管時間不長久 誰把誰休
我曾瞭解 能會有多痛 管那麼多
只要讓我在你耳邊輕輕唱歌

你的臉頰有你的頭髮 貼在我心上
希望世界能停留 感受你的體溫

Oh baby~ 我們的show
因為有你才上演
I got a show 真誠地快掉眼淚
一點點 親吻再多一點
摟著對方不要管現在是幾點

那天跟你一起坐計程車的時候
因為是那離心力的關係
不自覺地你自己靠著我
我感覺到你的髮香和你身上的溫度
我的手應該怎麼擺？該往那擺？
往上擺往下擺胡亂擺~
我就亂擺~乾脆假裝睡死我就亂擺~我就亂擺~

我們的show
因為有你才上演
I got a show 真誠地快掉眼淚
一點點 親吻再多一點
摟著對方不要管現在是幾點

我們的show 儘管時間不長久 誰把誰休
我曾瞭解 能會有多痛 管那麼多
只要讓我在你耳邊輕輕唱歌

OS：不好意思 不好意思太擠了 我的手不知道該往哪擺

黃靖倫 
作詞：蕭閎仁
作曲：蕭閎仁
Credit : 黃靖倫  OK MAN album 

Self talking

This is my though for tonight .

Realize that I haven changed at all , still that spoiled little kid that only rely on others.

Nothing that really change since then .

No large dream , no medium dream , not even small dream.

Only very realistic target that lie infront of me.

Have a feeling that all the choice in the past are not correct at all. And what happen in the past , continue as present tense.

No way going to run away like a litle kid . There is no such room of space for an adult to just turn thier back and walk away from difficulties.

Feel like my emotional impluse have blur my decision making in the past few year . Now going to pay the price for my studies.

The road haven reach its end yet , there is still way for it to turn around , and turn to a better road.

Just hope that whatever happen on the final test for this summer , may it be good .

And let me complete my studies , dare not hope for flashing ending , but a smooth as ice surface.

A feeling of heart

A feeling that can touch your heart .

Voices that can reap you off any negative emotion.

Emotion in the music that can calm any thundering storm.

Finally , it's coming back to me.

Such long time , that I have forgotten about this. Forget how to let go of thing and instead got tangle up by all this emotional stuff. 

Happen to browse to this file in my old Seagate hard drive. In there lies the old song that was sung by her , with voice that's able to blow all your trouble away.

Listening to the song , the voice inside the music made me realize that time have pass . Seven year have been past away without me really realize about it.CAN YOU BELIEVE ? So much time have been past without one really notice it.

And so thank you , the person that sing in my past memories . It was your voice , you that have guide me to what I have achieve in the past . Hoped that whatever that link me to you again will do the same wonder as in the past . Enable me to reach the level that I have never hoped to reach.

Well, we can't return to that time when we were just kid and all our world is just being yourself. A teenager turn adult last year .Many thing have happen last year , meet a lot of people and also experiences a lot more.

So much , and yet so little .

The thing that I forgotten , the emotional sense that was dull by time . Never realize that my life was so pale in comparison to other , so boring and yet its my life , my way of living it .

Slowly , I started to learn more , more about people , more about life. And slowly that I have to regain what was lost to me as in the past few month , life is just plain . the excitement that was present in the past have vanish , brought away by some unknown identities.

This year , where I conclude my studies if all may when smoothly for me . The coming month will became the ride of passage toward my achievable goal . The time will be the book keeper that record all that I have done in this year . May the result is what I hoped for , a result that I can proudly claim as mine.

2013 , a new year . An important year for all of us or just me ? 

Process of the day

Not much have progress for the study week .Have spend most time slacking and pace for studying is slow . Too slow I would say.

Need some additional motivation to push myself . But where do I find those ?

Mistake

Realize that I have repeated the same mistake as two year ago.

What a mess I am .

When did I live my life as history that keep repeating itself ?

And when could this end ?

Night

First time writing from the iPhone blogger app . Quite nice as compare to using safari to write post which are so not user friendly as you need to zoom in and slide left and right to read the stuff you have written down and so not good looking the process of writing blog on mobile . This is a better solution at least it look , feel and work nicer a d better .


So here I am trying thing out where I should be sleeping , but a post before night sure feels good.

Life is beatiful

Just when life started to became better for one and nicer thing and person are coming into the life , fate have to sneak behind your back and stab it with the intent of killing. What would be worse is that even with such intention , it does not kill you. It became a wound on your body , a wound that would constantly dripping blood from it and slowly drain your life energy away from you.

to be continue...........