The thing we have lost

After watching JJ practice love short movie , here's some though.

So long since I have seen you , hear your voice .

Forgotten , 

how your voice sound ,

how your face look ,

how it's to be beside you .

Yet,

there is no deny ,

that you were part of my life ,

part of my past ,

part of my memories .

To all those that we have lost ,

during our journey of life ,

Thank you.

For being part of it ,

To made us what we are now .

Thus , thank you again .

The start of a day

Start the day with sleeping

Continue the day with work

End the day with sleep again

That's a student life

R J second week of april

Busy with work , busy with life .

There is nothing that spin around me , I am no earth or sun .

Accept what I have , a better way to live a life .

Thus ..........

Acceptance of life completed .

lonely

Tired .

Have being fighting this war for a long time . Fighting against the enemy that will falter , never tired and never reduce in number . All alone , and after so long finally feel drained , feel like the endless energy that was supplied in the past has been cut off .

Loneliness , a formidable enemy . One that have the caliber to take down another opponent it faced. No matter the location , the size , the time , all will fall under it lap . One that have the capability that one turn , turned into one that can't be recognize by those that were once closed to them.Total transformation , fallen into the endless pit of darkness where one will be constantly being feed by the past that hold the most dearest memories that one once held.

Some of with fall with pride , where we fight till the bitter end of the battle. Some fall pathetic , begging for mercy where they don't even try to use what little strength against this foe.That's not a shameful act as the emissary that we were facing are too strong .

How could one win a endless war , a no limit zero sum game where endless resource have to be poured down into the war field .

Where's the answer?

Or did I asked the right question to invoke the desirable outcome?

IRIS

Iris a flower name , called Ayame in Japanese .

Learn about language of flower , the meaning behind each flower . And also realize that different color have a
different meaning .

Language of flower for iris : Good news , loyalty .

And here are extract from some website that i read about

Iris symbolizes eloquence. Purple iris is symbolic of wisdom and compliments. Blue iris symbolizes faith and hope. Yellow iris symbolizes passion while white iris symbolizes purity.

source: http://www.theflowerexpert.com/content/aboutflowers/flower-meanings

And this

Iris:

Faith, Wisdom, Valor, Your Friendship means so much to me source:http://www.iflorist.com/t-meaning.aspx and the highlighted part is the one that attract me the most to that flower.

Started to look at iris due to the Korea drama and realize that it hold much more than just a name for a show .

relationship

The most difficult lesson in life , a lesson that not every one will score a perfect ten or full mark for it. We are tied into the knot of relationship by the moment we were born . We were first tied to our family , the first connection , the first ever relationship that we have . Then we grow , we meet people and that's where the second relationship come , friendship . We made friend for all the time we were living . Some are temporary , where they fade away after some period of time . Some were beneficially , where we bonded due to mutual benefit. And lastly there were what we called eternal , friend that last for life , until you or them left the world , and yet after memories still exists .

The  third one , relationship between two person .The one that caught a lot of people on the endless spider net . Not much is known since the author of this post have not experience much on this and thus no comment on this . Just know that it some time end in happy ending where the two get together and live happily forever and  after where some it ended with a broken heart of glass with endless sleepless night and a wound that continue to bleed endlessly .

When you pass the third stage , you may or may not have the fourth one , a relationship as a parent and child .Another though phase that one have to faced . Really have no comment on this as I have no children .

The whole of our life is likely to revolve around human relationship . And yet all of us are having a not so smooth way to solve all those problem that we faced.

Treasure what you have , you may have nothing at the next second of your life.

Things that belong to you

In one life every one will bound to possess something. Any thing could be yours if you wanted , have the will to own it , have the heart to get it.

There are thing that you really liked that always appear at the wrong time . Some time you really have to wander how such thing could happen to you? Why that you luck could not be a little better so that it will appear on a different time , on then right time .

Trying to get those thing will be a fouls attempt , chances of failing is great . Not very good investment . And some time things will go really bad at the rate that you could not believe . Mess it up and it may change from a moment in your memories that is nice to be recall go the nightmare of your life that can never be erase , like a scar from a very bad wound that stick with you for the rest of your life .

Life is such , journey of a life is also a such . A such of what ? That's your interpretation, your own answer .

Life is like a coffee , which many combination is available .

Finding yours is your own job .

PS:Please substitute coffee with other drink that have similar property if you cannot consume coffees . Thank you.

people

That is the world we were in , human civilization . Currently the one that populate planet earth along with the other organism .

People , a factor that appear in a lot of system and theory that we study in college that most of the time label as uncertainty . Right , there is no way , no hundred percent way for us to predict a human action or movement . There is always chances that a person intuition will change the course of action that he/her will take in the next minute.

That was not just the part that human was unpredictable in  . Some , are just like the mother nature , change in an instant . Like a relationship , one party can change heart in the next second while the other was still immerse in that wonderful atmosphere .

But that is human nature right? At least for some that is . More unpredictable that the storm that is going to land beside me in few hour time.

Lightning strike now , need a break .


Will be continue .....................................

7/3/2013

Lesson have started as the new semester have kick start. Nothing heavy on the first week but can imagine how thing will move for the rest of the eleven week .

Quote time

: the world does not resolve around you . Your not the center of the sol system nor the Milky Way and definitely not the center of the galaxy. Nothing is wrong if your not the center of another person life as that's not why you was born . Remember at least your the center of the world for your family , your parent , the friend that care for you and maybe if fate and Cupid have been kind and caring enough , a special person will resolve around you like you are the center of gravity , which hold him/her closely to orbit around you.

Music , relax , a tired body that await to journey in the land of dream.

Adios , night . Sweet dream.

Though after watching lets play love

After watching the web drama let's play love on xinmsn , I think that it's a good thing that new element was being tested and I personally like it. Just that it's a bit short with each episode consist only of three minute, would be better if it could be a bit longer so that more can be explore.

Also saw the intro video where the cast answer about the question what is love. They have quite some answer there , and more can be search on the Internet and everyone will have their own unique answer .

To me, love is dream. That's what love mean for me , not sure whether it will change in the future but as for this moment , this is my answer to that question.

Last day of Febuary

Today is the last day of febuary  , no 29 this year .

A lot have happen this month ,summer course have ended where i am one step closer to graduation even though the end result was not satisfying . Have cny celebration which result in alot of red packet and food and feast which increase our/ mine fat/cholesterol level. Lack of exercise which create the result from the previous sentences .

Alot of happy moment , also sad moment was included . That's how life goes , always there would be up and there is definately be down .

Febuary , the second month of the year . Also the shortest month in a year . The month where valentine is held and every year have to sepnd alone  . No chocolate other the one that mum buy , pity me. Hope there will be a year where chocolate can just appear before me and I have no need to pull a single note or silver for it.

The month going to end in an hour time , let's pray for the better tomorrow , a better weekend , a better future.

 

So, what you want to change for the next month?

 

Judge

Such a hard thing to do , judging a person .

You may think one as a friend , but how could you know how a person think deep inside their mind ?

Such tedious routine have to go round and round until you learn the trick to it.

And the trick to it?

Who knows ? Find that out yourself . Maybe you will found it before your time run out.

Trust you gut more , at least you have some thing to back you up. There are time that your gut feeling is the best indicator on thing.

P S I love you , waiting

Saw this at Plaza Singapura last month . Remembered that there was a movie with the same name but never watched . Always forget about it and maybe will watch on the coming week if time permit me.

The heart doesn't have very clean heart shape and part of it was damage .Still this kind of thing was quite nice to see .

Sit at that corner while waiting for my jean to be fix and playing my phone until a pair of women sudden show up and look at me with the "what's a guy doing here look" that I went to shop before the appointment time to collect my jean.

Been a while since I went to PS. Remember that i use to go as frequent as possible for movie and food while staying at Singapore. A lot have changed since then , the place have been expended and more shop was added to the list for those shopaholic.Kind of good to hang around but not so good for the health of my wallet.
 
Not sure whether it's still there or not since it's a month old . Maybe next time will go back and check on it.

candle , light bulb , firework

The common trade of the three object ? They give out light and burn themselves in the process of doing so.

People love them , whether it's the romantic dinner that involve candle who illuminate the lovely vibe between the two love bird. Or bulb that light up everyone eye when they are in total darkness and also becoming part of the decoration especially during festival season . And how could the night end without a bang where the night sky not only be decorate by the beautiful milky way and star which was brought to us by the mother nature but also some man made sparkly beauty firework.

The trio was a great companion when you need them . Some will stay at your side when you really need them , other will stay at mind , your heart as part of the memories in life , a part that you may never forget in your entire life.

In life , your definitely going to meet people like the trio. Salute to them as they are the one that bring a better future , made the world a better place. And you , can be part of them and of course not in the sense of burning yourself in the process , but be person that shine the world . That world does not need to be big , maybe it's just a person heart , or your a little more  ambitious a a couple more people heart .

That's for the night , night . Sweet dream.

entry for 24/2/2013

Today is the last day for 2013 Chinese new year . It's called yuan xiao where it's the last day of celebration . For more detail please consult our free and almighty teacher which are called Google and yahoo .

Rush back from singapore in the morning and realize that dad have done all the praying .  Lesson of the day would be always , always made a phone call and confirm thing before making a decision. Could have stayed a few more day if we know that thing will turn out this way.

Still the very relax mood in wait for the new semester to began . Watch two episode of running man and going to get all of them from friend and watch before thing get ugly when the semester start to rack havoc .

Going to settle all the bill soon . Another hole in my bank account . Gosh , the cycle have started before I even got a paid check . Can imagine that the amount of bill that going to tie to my monthly deduction list when I finally start working.

Still a long time before that happen , and thus , enjoy life , student life.

PS: all the good stuff are for student , really miss the student price movie ticket . Even the rate given for credit and debit card are not as good as student price.

著迷

著迷

我停下腳步看著你，可愛又美麗的背影，
希望好運就此降臨，聽著我最喜歡的CD，
終於我鼓起了勇氣，把我的愛意向你說明，
你那憂鬱帶點神秘的大眼睛，已經攻佔我的心，
就讓我把每一個你摟在懷裡說愛你，BABY BABY就是你，
藏在心中的秘密，要和你在一起，這是多麼的甜蜜，
OH YOU'RE THE ONE FOR ME我早就深深著了迷,就快點給我你的心.

我停下腳步看著你，可愛又美麗的背影，
希望好運就此降臨，聽著我最喜歡的CD，
終於我鼓起了勇氣，把我的愛意向你說明，
你那憂鬱帶點神秘的大眼睛，已經攻佔我的心，
就讓我把每一個你摟在懷裡說愛你，BABY BABY就是你，
藏在心中的秘密，要和你在一起，這是多麼的甜蜜，
OH YOU'RE THE ONE FOR ME我早就深深著了迷,就快點給我你的心.

BABY BABY就是你，藏在心中的秘密，要和你在一起，這是多麼的甜蜜，
OH YOU'RE THE ONE FOR ME我早就深深著了迷,就快點給我你的心.

我會永遠在這裡,不停不停等著你,
BABY,快給我你的心 OH YOU'RE THE ONE FOR ME我會永遠在這裡，
不停不停等著你 BABY快給我你的心 BABY BABY就是你，
我早就深深著了迷，就快點給我你的心.

credit: 潘瑋柏 反轉地球 專輯

PS: one of my favorite  song 

letting go

One of the hardest lesson to learn. many people could do any thing, but  letting thing go , whether material , though or people , just ain't made for those people.

Even I am part of such group , it really take a lot of effort to move away from one thing that is one closely tie to you . Some time , time can be the catalyze for moving forward . But other time , people will just temporarily let out of thing , until they are being remind again .

So ? what's your choice ? let it go and be free or not ?

one piece film z

Watched this movie today . Not bad really . Japanese movie really know how to capture that heart warming moment . Still in cinema , catch it while it's till on theater .

idea

Really appreciate and impress by those that can constantly produce new idea .

Running short on idea to write about , or maybe just plain laziness that shut my mind down?
   
Running out of idea was a indication that you should either start recharge yourself either by rest or further enhancement to your brain. No eating of brain is involve in the brain enhancement mention above .

Rum would be good as I think some of the crazy idea come after drinking of rum. A toast to the creator of rum.

Running man cannot be forgotten as it's a idea generation program and from the look of it you can see how much idea and effort was put into it.

Run with your idea now , you may have a straight way to being a million or billionaire .

Reign the present and the future with your determination and brain .

entry for 20/2/2013

There is so much that are waiting for me to settle , so much .There is studies to be completed which will last for another year hopefully , or must ended by then. There are so many thing missing in the house, so many that was needed , and yet there is no cash that fill in the inventory .And all that await for me to fill in when i started to get my paid check.

There is this feeling that I have made the wrong choice , and from the look of thing now, that choice was really wrong .Yet there is no way to turn the gear of time backward , nobody can . There is only looking forward , and really believe that I can pull out the stun like always , and solve the crisis in the house.

Crysis 3 was out, but has no mood for it. Have stopped getting new game for a while. The last game that was purchase was mass effect 3 and that’s a story that will keep me accompany for a long period of time. Not saying that I will give up gaming just that the time now, the cash are better spends on other stuff.

T minus 11 day until the new semester start. And that’s where all de fun began.

Good night and sweet dream. Brush your teeth and they will be happy.